rude awakening,
i rekindle.
as your dawn equates of your frowns,
a bad coffee and a cigarette in your hand.
annoyingly early, but despite,
you struggle to make a stand.
you would, hold my hand,
and shield me against my peculiar paranoia of reality,
as it descends.
for your love holds an increasingly hostile stance,
hence,
it wouldn't even matter if your heart doesn't mend.

being the blind skeptic that i am,
it appears to me as bland,
but determined, you triumph to bend further the curve on my face,
you'd pat my head and say," lets forget this phase and pursue our chase".
yet once again, its my heart, that you've aced.


as i embark on my journey with you towards your dreams,
i assure every one of you, it isn't easy as it seems.
situations often holds us hostage.
then, we'd have no choice but to play,
the brutal game of "tug-of-war".
this is where, i'll often show you my claw,
and, this is when, seldom, you couldn't care less but to, score.
weirdly enough,i will end up with the scratches,
but you will end up, with your wounds,
ripped up and raw.
that is, until, you use the most fatal weapon of all,
my, one flaw.

my mistakes, shadows my days,
horrify my nights,and will hold me prey,
for the rest of my life.

deserted, as we feel our hearts tatter,
following so, would be our future that shatters.

i brace myself to look you in the eye.
i'm shaking hard but not being able to cry.
as you try hard to defy another one of my temporary highs,
i'm just waiting for you, to say it out loud,
that our love was just a another lie.

i would feel my soul sore,
knowing that at this very moment,
my happiness is being flung out the door.

and so, like every now and then,
we would crash to the floor.
you'd grab me by my jaw,
and from that, i know you'll withdraw,
when, you never fail to kiss my lips and erase all abhor.

my love,i may run but i'll never dissapear.
you must know, if i run, i'm running away from only my fears.
it is only a matter of time before i get weak,
so hold me in your arms when your door creeks,
for i have returned because it is solely within your love that i will find the peace, i seek.

- i love you.