relationships.

a rather pretentious choice of song, don't you think?

it sounds like goo until it comes to the point when 'the sun will burn a happy hole in your heart'. hahaha.

where is Gotan Project when you need them? i have been waiting and waiting for new material to come on by, by that band, but nah, tough luck. thing is, this jazz, electronica band produces the most ridiculously soothing and hyped up, electronica/jazz fusion tracks. the recent news i've gotten, was that, they released a live recorded album. bloody hell. if Nouvelle Vague could make their way down to Zouk, why can't they? i absolutey adore them and am still waiting. very me. very bipolar, the best of both worlds.

well, anyways.. hows you? hope everyone is fine.

before i start on one of my random 'realization pop-ups',a little update on the short story that i am working on. dear god. it goes on and on and on. its turning into a book(move over Stephenie Meyer. RRRIIIGGGHHT!) ive never enjoyed writing this much. don't worry. its not a lame, vampire follow-up to Twilight just because i am obsessed with it(and, with the real person playing Edward Cullen, =P). i'll give you a hint: a repented transvestite and a free-spirited prostitute. yes, it revolves around forbidden love and no, they don't die. but,the possibility of it happening in reality is there. problem is, i am always stucked on how i should start and end a dialogue. urgh. need to do more homework.

there's that.

have you ever thought that subconsciously, all of us are actually parents? well, hypotethically speaking. i guess my mind just decided to mind-map the word, relationships. you have friends. you have boyfriends/girlfiends. friendships and relationships suddenly came across to me like a child growing up into adolescents where the curious hormones rage, where you have to feed them with sufficient love and time, so they won't go slamming their room's door or crying. put a smile on their faces with a new shiny toy. teaching them things on life and everything else. saddest part is, when they grow up and are capable of making decisions on their own, you have to let them go. that's when disease vulnerability strikes and endless questions, approaches. did all your efforts actually dissapear right in front of your face and did your heart just broke aloud for everyone's viewing pleasure? doesn't all this apply to all the 'ships' that we choose to board on?

sigh.

i am probably suffering from a slight emotional mishap, i suppose.

i will pursue what i want, until i get it. 'worth the try' doesn't even do my good intentions justice.

don't we all love the Singapore weather nowadays like our government? =). hiring ang moh kids for the advertisement just to make it international and have the world bow down to your feet for inappropriate act of roots? bad move. i love kids, regardless of race. i wonder what would be your answer if one of the local kids come to you and ask, 'but why is she speaking chinese? she isn't chinese, is she?'. and, it should be citizens happiness before country's prosperity.

for the record, i don't hate ang mohs. look at who i am obsessed with? =) this is where i should say,'its just us, not you', like in every other pre-breakups.

till later. =)