a way to a good year ;

problems keeps on recurring in your life for a reason.to rather turn away,will result in affecting you long term.it'll be standing there for you to accept and deal with it,like a stubborn child.no matter how much you run.even through the hardest time,you gotta think,nothing is impossible.and to get you through it,think of someone else close to you,not having the privileges that you have and compare your problems to theirs.emotions may get involved,but,it only gets the best of you and your problems.

*deep sigh*

its a Friday night and im sitting at home,feeling blessed.dad wants to kill me with 2 box of ferrero rocher and good news for the start of the year,my cellphone bill is $55.13(such a boast!).heh.

in short,i guess in life,the best thing to do when the world is on your shoulders,is to reminicse about the good times you have with your loved ones.when i do that,i will have that hideous smile splat across my face,thinking about how ridiculously funny that person can be in an irritating way and me,weirdly loving every single minute of it,the crazy wake up calls,the way he passionately holds my shoulder when i was about to sell my phone just for money,the ocassional unecessary arguements followed by making up,how Dad dances childishly to my rave tracks and the way Mum gets tear-jerky from watching Korean dramas then laughing with missing tooths to my dumb jokes.try it and you'll feel as if you're outside of your body,looking in,watching all your good and bad sides to your life playing,just like the movies.

a wonderful feeling.

i guess that's what we,humans are doing wrong.we only start reminiscing when things are permanently gone.instead,we should start embracing reminiscing what we have now.

that is why with the great demand for money to partly keep you happy,you don't have to necessarily be there 24/7 for your parents or beaus,but tell them you love them then and again so they'll know how much they mean to you.that is what i am trying to practice with my parents recently.and the feeling's really good.plus,someone taught me once that words are the strongest weapon you can ever use to change things.

the weight of the world can bring you down low,but dont ever attempt to look down.remember,then again,you have only yourself to make it or break it.demanding too much of this from others,will only make you look stupid,extremely effusive and fragile.

been carrying the weight of the world like a true queen,
been travelling alone for so long,
i won't want to offer an offer from anyone,
for a pat on my shoulder,
to dry my weeping eyes,
or,keep me safe from harm.

i'm still doing alright.

i'm still smiling and so,should you.what have you got to lose? =)