the queen of run around;
had a quick chill out session with the old friends,Kel,Farz and Doink earlier just now.its been donkey years since i last saw them.and boy,did everyone grow up ya.all 3 of them are like riding bikes now and i felt so left out.for heaven's sake,i cant even get myself,up straight on a bicycle.haha.worried beats the fact that i glad for them.you know how stories about bike accidents go spreading,wide on the first few pages of a newspaper as you flipped through.most of them are gore,alright.i just hope nothing similar like that will happen to them.so,ride safely you,idiots!=).

ahh..and so,this is the true reason why i come to comfort then leave before it all gets too comfortable.i guess im too afraid when it all comes around to being too deep and serious.i didnt actually fear commitment or marriage earlier on in my life.it was only after my past 3 relationships and when writing sets in,that "marriage" was the last thing on my mind.plus,i dont be all "gungho" (is it even spelled that way in chinese?) when something comes in direct with me in the face.i just run away with my heart,silently.

i want to achieve my dream as a high-end journalist.
and,i just want to live my life being happy.

thats all i want to try to believe in now.

sadly,the past few days being up wasnt worth despite all of it.

i am angry and im gonna stay like this for a long time.thank you so much to the one person that i'd thought i'd regarded as a friend.seems like not everybody has manners.not even---oh,fucking forget it.

well,moving on with life.

i dont give a fuck and i dont even know what to believe in anymore.

till then. =)