sons and daughters ;
i havent been home since yesterday and already,ive gotten myself into one of those "parent prep talks".don't get me wrong.i am certainly being the least rude when i say that.and, neither am i going against what my parents are doing; taking care of me,which to this age i still am grateful and pretty much appreciative about.

my mind's totally blown out of proportion due to the conclusion of them coming up with different kind of assumptions.and,i am smiling right now to the thought of them asking me to explain what sort of personal problems do i have to the extent of not coming back home.smiling,because,at every attempt of me trying to answer their questions,they told me off by not making out what im saying into my "reasons".smiling,because they don't even spare me my breath to hear me out and smitten all at the same time knowing that they care for me,only in a wrong approach.

sentences such as "responsibilities for my siblings " and "returning no favours to your own parents" came,spatted out in the heated arguement earlier are still ringing vividly in my head.plus,comparing me to your friend's daughter or any others,will never do any good and its only defeating your own purpose.no name's listed here,but most of them don't even have a job or dreams or even contribute to their families finances.so,just because they stay at home all day and do housework with their moms makes them a good daughter?


fuck.this is the one reason why ive always hated conservative perceptives.its like a preconcieved notion,that men are suppose to only be the breadwinner and achieve sucess whereas women are suppose to be at home,preparing meals in the kitchen.be conservative,but not narrow-minded cause there's a huge difference.

i get ticked so easily by that.

despite all that,i admit that im a hard head to break advices through.

i just hope,if only they'll listen and accept instead of urging to change me in immediate ways even though,i know well that they do not want to lose me.

i suggest my composure for all these are already blocked,numb and freezing.